My First Week of College

I just finished my first week as a student at Harding University. In truth, I must say that college is just like high school, only it cost a whole lot of money. I believed that being a university student would some how drastically change my entire being, the way I socialized with other people, the things I do, and so forth. In some ways it has.

Throughout my years in high school, I hid a shy young man, within a know-it-all, obnoxious, carefree skin. Just as a snake sheds his skin, I have shed my skin, and I have allowed what has been inside of me all along to arise. Now, my quiet shy inner being has in some way become my outwardly self. Sometimes, during the last week I would find myself wishing that I had a shell to retreat back into. I found myself longing for alone time, wanting to slip away to my room and listen to music. Music has become a source of freedom, it is becoming an extension of my mind. I always have a song going on in my head. There are different musical styles for each and every mood I have, it is as if the music understands me.

Work is almost the same as it always has been. When I step behind the counter, all my confidence comes back. I realize that I am special, I mean seriously how many college freshmen have a job at Midnight Oil. At work, I am not shy at all. This confuses me, why do I have two personalities, the outgoing and the shy? Who am I? I really don't know anymore.

One thing has changed at work, Steven (my oldest brother and former manager at MO) moved to New Jersey today. For very selfish reasons, I wanted him to stay here in Searcy with me. Every since I started working with him, we have had the best relationship. We suddenly got along, and even did some things together. Now, he is gone. I didn't want him to leave, but I know that New Jersey is what Steven needs. So Steven, if you read this I miss you, but I wish you good luck in your new adventures.

And that has been my first week of college, altogether a very interesting experience.